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HELLO

"What do you want?"

GOODBYE

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[ this is nice... however, it is not words of affirmation, so thorns is starting to get antsy here. ]

Am I comfortable?

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[ Elysium not getting what he wants is also sending him spiraling. Another flicker of disbelief crosses his face before he reaches for Thorns' hand, guiding it gently to press against his cheek. He nuzzles it briefly, practically humming into it, before he slowly slides it along his hair, tracing along the curve of his ear. His eyes fall shut as he leans further into the touch, letting the sensation sink in.

Seeing as he's practically spelled out what he wants from Thorns, he drops Thorns' hand in favour of touching his cheek, giving him a whole two seconds to oblige before he throws a tantrum. He's looking at Thorns so expectantly. ]

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[ fucking help

well. it is at least a clear enough sign, so thorns will immediately start to pet elysium, massaging through his hair before cupping his cheek gently, his thumb lightly caressing it.

he waits... to be told he's doing good... ]

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[ if he wants to be told he's a good boy he needs to go back into raf's inbox. elysium has stopped believing in words.

Instead…

What Thorns gets is Elysium throwing his arms around his midsection, rubbing the side of his face that Thorns' hand isn't touching into the kigu. Just like that, he is content. Hehe. ]

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[ this is killing thorns because it is very obvious that elysium is enjoying this thoroughly but

he needs to be praised. he's dying here. this is the effect matchup from hell. thorns just continues petting him, watching every reaction while growing more impatient the longer elysium stays silent.

he's going to die.

explodes.

eventually he leans down so he can nuzzle his face against elysium's. ]

Am I doing good?

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[ Thorns… is so yappy? He's only said a handful of words, and yet Elysium feels it so incredibly deeply. It's illogical. It makes no sense. And yet Thorns has also committed the most severe crime of them all: he's stopped petting, even if the nuzzling had been a nice and temporary distraction.

…

He turns his face to bite Thorns' cheek. ]

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[ ...

this isn't praise. he whines, which is something he will later deny doing. ]

Tell me I'm doing good.

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[ He is… officially turned off. Affection over.

He closes his eyes. Good night. ]

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[



his praise. he's dying. thorns immediately nuzzles him again, trying to please him. his hand takes through elysium's hair, scratching at the spot he knew he liked before.

praise? affirmation?? ]

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[ This is going to go fine, Elysium said. It's not going to be that bad, Elysium said. They are never going to do this again and they will both be in mutual agreement of it.

Elysium does the thing where you duck under the covers to get away from whatever's annoying you, except all he has is Thorns' lap to bury himself in. Stop… he does not want to leave but this is a lot of overstimulation?

His feathers are hackled!!!!! There is nothing!!! ]

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[ THEY REALLY HAVE DEEPLY OPPOSING EFFECTS AT PLAY HERE.

he continues to pet him... begrudging because he isn't getting what he wants... this is torture? ]

Should I do something else? Tell me what to do to please you.

[ so he can be complimented 🥺 ]

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[ "You're noisy…"

NOT THE OPPOSITE OF A COMPLIMENT.

But he's also hugging Thorns again so he thinks that should make up for it? And even if it doesn't, it should because he's said so.

This really is a way to get them to never engage with these mechanics again… never will Thorns be at risk of deviant behaviour. ]

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[ this isn't even fun deviant behavior... he is only getting rejected with the powers at play here...

but elysium more or less gave thorns an order so he shuts up.





he waits for elysium to tell him how good he is at being quiet....... ]

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[ you can still ask the mods to turn him into an omega

But the quiet does do something for him… wow… a likely agonising twenty minutes where Elysium has the best twenty minutes of his life in the lap of his favourite person(?) later, he's suddenly feeling a lot more charitable. ]

What's one thing you want to hear?

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Tell me I'm doing good...

[ he has never needed validation more in his entire life, he is going to explode and need to go into the river again because this is far more serious than cyoa wounds.

they should have never made up........ was it worth not being praised..... ]

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…

You're doing fine, I guess.

[ i'm not sure what thorns expected ]

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[ this feels... okay. it could be better. it does not truly give the impression that elysium thinks he is praise worthy, so thorns is not getting any serotonin.

...

he just flops down, letting his back hit the floor. ]

I'm... not doing a good job.

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[ The way it takes Thorns reaching his despair event horizon for Elysium to pay him more attention. This is not right.

Is he… an asshole? He lays down next to Thorns and curls up next to him, tilting his cheek over to face him directly. ]

I didn't need you to do anything like that. It's enough that you're just there.

[ okay he says this but he was thoroughly enjoying the attention until he wasn't. what was that. ]

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... Okay.

[ he scoots even closer to him. ]

Have you told anyone else that they did good...?

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[ they're already next to each other how close are they getting ]

Why would I tell anyone that?

[ wait. ]

Oh. Reirin.

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[ extremely close.

but thorns has to think about this. ]

That's fine.

[ JUST ACCEPTS REIRIN GETTING A COMPLIMENT THAT HE IS UNABLE TO RECEIVE..... ]

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[ Why is he saying it's fine? He should be saying it isn't fine. What happened to wanting his validation so badly. He was…… supposed to get jealous!!!

… ]

No one else can tell you you're good.

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[ he needed to say someone who isn't a 15 year old girl....

thorns snuggles against him. ]

No one will.

[ "Well. I guess Rafayel did that one time." ]

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[ WHY WOULD HE TELL SOMEONE WHO ISN'T A 15-YEAR-OLD GIRL?





He feels strongly enough about this statement to break his vow on thoughtshares. He would (?) snuggle back but he is now frozen in place. ]

Rafayel?

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He called me a good boy.

[ and it weirded thorns out at the time, even though right now that feels like the highest honor anyone could bestow upon him...? truly you do not appreciate what you have until it is gone. ]