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Hak went with Yuma.
I ran after Medea, but I was unable to catch up to her, so we were separated.
The rat didn't kill us.
Actually
Can we meet in person?

[ well he reads all of that and decides the rest of his questions can wait a second. ]

yeah of course
where are you? i can come to you

Outside of the simulation room.

ok be right there

[ which is about as good as it gets, so he shoves his compact into his pocket and heads back into the maze...

it's easy enough to get to the simulation room though and he pulls up to a stop next to him. ]

... thinking about going in, or just taking a break?

I don't remember what I usually set it as when I go in.

[ he stares at the door for another second before shaking his head. ]

I didn't want to discuss too much over text.

[ hm. well this is concerning. ]

I get it. I would've come to see you from the beginning, but wasn't sure if you wanted some space or not.

[ he tilts his head to stare at the door, too. ]

I can set it for something myself and we can talk in there if you want. I don't know how out in the open you wanna be right now.

[ he nods his head, and will go inside then. ]

[ he will set the room up and follow, allowing for the the samegawa floodplain to manifest into a warm, calm day. ]

I set the timer for thirty minutes, but it can go longer if we want it to.

That's fine.

[ they'll see if they need the time. ]

... The people who killed us were all people who were important to us, I think. In our actual lives. For good reason, since we were terrible.

[ well he sees why he wanted to move this off-channel. ]

I don't think I have to say this, but I will. Those people in there weren't actually you, so you have to remember you didn't do those terrible things. Not that it changes how you feel about being killed by someone important to you.

[ ... he's not sure if he wants to ask if it was elysium or not. ]

How'd you find out in the end?

[ it's a sentiment he understands. after all, once they all figured out what was going on, they immediately started to fight against it. it was obvious none of them agreed.

but emotions are tricky things that don't always listen to logic. ]

The memory came back after the confrontation.

[ emotions are extremely tricky and that's why he's being slightly more careful with this. ]

Awful... [ just mumbling. ] We didn't get our memories back until we reached the summit and found the people more important to us. So to you, it felt like these people were confronting you but you didn't know the depth of their relevance to you.

Mm. It did all slowly come back to us eventually, but we spent most of the time working with just half the information.

I thought it was my teacher who killed me at first, but I was wrong.

That guy you left, right? [ because fuck that guy. ] If only it were that easy. But on those trips... they always pick the people that'll hit you the most. Push you into complying. Stuff like that.

... Apparently, yeah. It's concerning how much information this place gets from us.

[ to be able to do things like this. ]

Tell me about it. It can rewrite who you are and spit up a whole new life using pieces it already had. And every week we have to deal with the maze putting our personal stuff on public display... it's like nobody can hide anything.

[ a frown follows. ]

... it's gonna be hard to shake off, isn't it?

[ he looks down at his hand, flexing his fingers for a moment. ]

... Possibly. I made a choice that I don't think I can forgive myself for. But all we can do is move on and try to live.

[ ... man. ]

I'm sorry, Thorns. [ what else can he say? ] I know all you can do is try to move forward and do better, but it's not like you won't occasionally think about the "what ifs", right? What if you made another choice, or what if the results are different. Not that it does anybody any good but... you get what I'm saying.

[ he is once again amazed at what a thoughtful teenager yosuke is. ]

Do people tell you that you're very kind?

[ there's a soft laugh to that. ]

I think I just kinda get it. [ despite his other flaws, he is a genuinely empathetic person. ] But I would rather try to be like this for people than anything else.

Not everyone is like that.

[ ... ]

It's a trait you shouldn't lose.

Believe me, I'm trying not to. Sometimes I think that's what this place is trying to do though. Test us to see how far we'll bend before we break. I kinda hate it.

Mm. It's not making things easy for us.

... Have you felt like you've been making progress? With your shard.

.. yeah, I think so. Different every week. Have you? I know we kinda talked about this before, but...

This week was the first one I made any progress. I was failing all the other weeks.

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